For, whilst Edward respected her more and was grateful
to her, it made her seem by so much the more cold in other matters
that were near his heart--his responsibilities, his career, his
tradition. It brought his despair of her up to a point of
exasperation--and it riveted on him the idea that he might find
some other woman who would give him the moral support that he
needed. He wanted to be looked upon as a sort of Lohengrin.
At that time, he says, he went about deliberately looking for some
woman who could help him. He found several--for there were
quite a number of ladies in his set who were capable of agreeing
with this handsome and fine fellow that the duties of a feudal
gentleman were feudal. He would have liked to pass his days
talking to one or other of these ladies. But there was always an
obstacle--if the lady were married there would be a husband who
claimed the greater part of her time and attention. If, on the other
hand, it were an unmarried girl, he could not see very much of her
for fear of compromising her. At that date, you understand, he had
not the least idea of seducing any one of these ladies. He wanted
only moral support at the hands of some female, because he found
men difficult to talk to about ideals.
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