And they warned her that
she would be committing a sin if she continued to think that she
had sinned. Nevertheless, she continued to think that she had
sinned.
Leonora could not be aware that the man whom she loved
passionately and whom, nevertheless, she was beginning to try to
rule with a rod of iron--that this man was becoming more and
more estranged from her. He seemed to regard her as being not
only physically and mentally cold, but even as being actually
wicked and mean. There were times when he would almost
shudder if she spoke to him. And she could not understand how he
could consider her wicked or mean. It only seemed to her a sort of
madness in him that he should try to take upon his own shoulders
the burden of his troop, of his regiment, of his estate and of half of
his country. She could not see that in trying to curb what she
regarded as megalomania she was doing anything wicked. She
was just trying to keep things together for the sake of the children
who did not come. And, little by little, the whole of their
intercourse became simply one of agonized discussion as to
whether Edward should subscribe to this or that institution or
should try to reclaim this or that drunkard.
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